This Life story is dedicated to the most amazing, strong and brave little girl i have ever met. It was January 1999 when i found out i was going to be a mother :) and this was the one of the happiest days in my life. You were born at Simpsons Memorial Maternity Pavilion on 28/10/1999 as soon as i held you i felt such a "SPECIAL LOVE THAT YOU CANT EVEN DESCRIBE" you entered the world at 07.46am, weighing 5Lb 7Oz, and 46cm you were so small but so perfect. I was the happiest 21yr old in the world, I had my beautiful baby girl even though you used me as a punch and kick bag i never bothered as i knew i was going to be a Mummy and im so glad i had a daughter so special as you my princess. you did not have it easy when you were born once you had been born after a couple of hours i was getting really worried as you were trying so hard to latch on to me to get some milk but something told me something was wrong,then i thought maybe she will take it from a bottle, i got you one and you wouldnt take it or i thought you wouldnt,so i went to see the peditrician and she came along and seen you then just said some babys take longer but i wasnt having that as a answer, my big sister came in "your Auntie Donna", i was crying and said to her "Tiffany has'nt had anything to drink since she was born, i've been along and they checked her over but have said just to keep trying i have but she wont take it, it is like she cant suck? I might have been a 1st time Mummy but i knew something was wrong, Auntie donna went along and this time another peaditrician came to see you he looked you over, looked in your mouth and said we need to do some tests but i would like Tiffany to go up into the Neo-Natal Unit. As 2 nurses came with me to take you up i was holding you so close and tight in my arm's and one of the nurses tried to take you from me by saying mummy has had a busy night and will still be sleepy from the drugs during labour and the other nurse said i think mum is well enough to carry Tiffany herself:>) as we walked out the lift i didnt expect to see what i did, the nurse opened the door and there was 12 people around a little cot i thought something had happend to a baby, but then the nurse said where all they people are standing talking that is where Tiffany is going, for 8mth i watched you go through so much pain as you had severe reflux and only an op could fix this but your surgeon said we needed to wait till you put more weight on to stop you being sick after every feed, mummy bolus fed you for 8mth, then it was time for you to come home i was so happy as all i wanted to do was be on my own with you as the only time i was is when it was near the time for me to take you home we spent 1wk in the blue room in simpsons, then when i got you home i lay on the bed with you looking at you in such awww, i couldnt believe you were mine to love forever and ever, you were an amazing little girl so full of smiles and always seemed happy (but you must have been hurting inside with your reflux as it tortured me knowing there was nothing i could do to stop the pain :(.... Then i had to rush you into sick kids and this is when your stay started we only had 6mth out of the time you and i had together, but you went through 5 operations in 2yrs and as soon a you opened your eyes you would look at me and still manage to give a smile, i would sit by your bedside all night in the intensive care unit and think if only i could take any pain you are in and throw it to the devil, but this was one wish i couldnt do for you my peach, but again you were back to your happy smiling self in no time. you got your last operation in Febuary 2003 and it BROKE MY HEART WHEN THEY SAID THEY WOULD HAVE TO CUT YOUR VOCAL CORDS FOR THE TRACKOSTOMY YOU NEEDED THIS HAD TO BE DONE, BUT I COULDNT BEAR IT WHEN THEY SAID I WOULD HAVE TO CHANGE YOUR BREATHING TUBE? AS THEY TOOK THE ONE YOU HAD IN OUT YOU WERE LOOKING STRAIGHT INTO MY EYES AND I KNEW YOUR THOUGHTS WERE "HELP ME MUMMY", I cried and said there is noway i can do that i cannot change the tube im going to have to get the nurse out to do it, your face went purple your blue eyes were filled with absolute PANIC i will never ever forget the look in your face especially your eyes!!! My darling im so sorry you had to go through that no child deserves to go through what you had to. All i can say is "YOU WERE THE MOST SPECIAL, AMAZING HAPPY DAUGHTER ANYONE COULD EVER WISH FOR AND ALL I CAN SAY IS I WOULD DO IT ALL OVER AGAIN. I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU AND NEVER STOP, YOU HAVE TOUCHED SO MANY PEOPLES HEARTS AND THEY ALL LOVE YOU. I DO NOT KNOW IF I CAN EVER GET OVER LOOSING YOU, YOU WERE MY WHOLE WORLD AND IN 1 SHORT NIGHT YOU WERE TAKING AWAY FROM ME, NO MOTHER OR FATHER SHOULD EVER HAVE TO PREPARE THEIR CHILDS FUNERAL. I CANT STOP THINKING ABOUT YOU MY LITTLE PEACH. YOU ARE CONSTANTLY WITH ME WHERE EVER I GO YOUR IN MY MIND BUT MOST OF ALL YOU HAVE MY HEART. UNTILL WE MEET AGAIN MY PEACH YOU WILL ALWAYS HAVE MOST OF MY HEART THE DAY MY HEART WILL BE COMPLETE IS WHEN I CAN GIVE YOU ANOTHER SIBLING AND WE ARE ALL TOGETHER AGAIN BUT FOR YOUR LITTLE BROTHER PLEASE LOOK AFTER HIM.XXX. I LOVE YOU SO, SO MUCH TIFFANY. WITH ALL MY LOVE MUMMY.XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX